Boy Stole my Heart

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Kagun's #1 fans


Vance and Swade are Kagun's new best friends. The first week he was home they couldn't get enough of him. They both think its so cool to give him a mohawk. Swade loves to have Kagun hold his finger. He thinks that is so cool when he grabs onto his finger. Swade is an amazing helper with Kagun. If I need anything for Kagun, Swade is the first one to get it for him. He also is the first one to run to Kagun and comfort him when he cries. He loves to hold Kagun and watch tv. Vance's favorite time with Kagun is when Kagun is sleeping and all cuddly and calm. They both have grown very close to Kagun. And the both love the fact that they are uncles. They tell everyone about Kagun and replay everytime he has peed, pooped and thrown up on me. They think thats pretty funny. (:


Mom and dad fight over Kagun all the time. My mom has been so much help. I wouldnt have made it through the first week home without the help from my mom. She has stepped in and really helped me with everything. She has taught me all sorts of little tricks and things to do with Kagun. She has been great support with breast feeding. I was ready to give up and she kept me going. My dad has been absolutely amazing. Kagun was sick the first week. He lost a lot of weight and just didnt look healthy. I cried for 3 days and just held him. My dad came home and gave Kagun a blessing. In 4 days he had gained 2 lbs and was happier and healthier than before. I know with all my heart that the blessing was the reason behind his quick recovery. He also had a little bit of Jaundice and after the blessing it was completely gone. The blessing was amazing. And it was as much for me as it was for Kagun. I was waiting for my milk to come in and Kagun was starving. And it broke my heart. But once my dad gave Kagun the blessing everything fell into place. I am so grateful for my dad and having the priesthood in the household. I told my dad he is my temporary husband. He carries my carseat and diaper bag for me when we go places. And he is always right there at my door to help me with Kagun when I get out of the car or need anything. I love you dad.



The first two days with Kagun were amazing. I was so happy. I have never been so happy in my entire life. He slept like this on my chest the entire time I was in the hospital. The nurses only took him one time to the nursery to give me a few hours to sleep. I asked them to bring Kagun back when he needed to eat so that they didnt have to give him a bottle. But they decided that they didnt want to wake me and that I needed the sleep. So they gave him a bottle. That was the only time I let them take him to sleep in the nursery. (: And still to this day he LOVES to sleep on my chest like this. Somedays its the only place he will sleep. But I wouldnt change that at all. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the cuddle time with him.


So while I was pregnant Shaylee was totally grossed out about me being pregnant. She wouldnt even touch my belly to feel him kick because she was really grossed out and said it was nasty. And at the beginning of my pregnancy I had asked her to come into the delivery room. Then as I got farther along I changed my mind. Probably something to do with being an emotional wreck for 9 months. But when the day came I decided I wanted her in there. I didnt even have to ask. She came in and didnt leave. Hopefully she got as much of a spiritual experience out of it as I did. Now she loves to hold Kagun. She spends lots of time holding him for me.

Kagun is hardly ever set down. Someone is always around to hold him and cuddle him. He is becoming very spoiled and on days like today, wont let anyone put him down.
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05/25/2009

On May 25, 2009 Kagun West Taylor was born at 8:30 am. He weighed 6 lb 11 oz and was 20 inches long. Let me start at the beginning...
It was a Sunday night and we decided to go for a walk as a family across the golf course. We do this a few times a week and decided to take a longer walk this time all the way around the golf course. It started getting cold and windy and the sprinklers were on so we were heading towards home when a sprinkler came on less than 5 feet in front of all of us and nailed us all with water. Vance got the worst of it he was soaked. But in the shock of a sprinkler spraying me in the face I ran up a steep grass hill to get out of the line of fire. This is when I think my water broke. I dint know for sure because it wasn't a huge gush filling my shoes like most people made me believe it was. We continued on our way home and I started feeling a little pains. I was desperate to keep the pains coming so I bounced on my yoga ball for about an hour. I started to feel the pains harder and stronger. It was about 10:30 so I went upstairs to go to bed. I rocked in my rocking chair for about an hour and thats when the contractions really started coming. I started timing them and about midnight they were exactly 4 minutes apart. I called my mom who was downstairs in bed and told her to come upstairs and take me to the hospital. She came up and got in my bed and tried to go back to sleep. I laid down next to her and the contractions didn't stop. We took our time packing my clothes and make up and everything I would need. I didn't want to spend any more time in the hospital than I needed to. We even stopped at the gas station to get chap stick and chocolate and a diet coke for mom. All while I was in labor and having contractions. When I got to the hospital it was 1:00 am and the contractions were still 4 min apart. They checked me in and said that my water was broken. I didn't even know that it was broken. She asked when it could have happened and I told her I thought it was about 9:00 pm when we were on the golf course. Then I was moved to my delivery room where they said I was still dilated to a 2 and started me on petocin and the epidural. The nurse said I should get some sleep cause it would be a long time before I went into labor. So me and mom went to bed. But I couldn't sleep. I was too freakin excited!! About 5:30 I started having really bad contractions. I woke my mom and we called the nurse in. The nurse checked me and said I was dilated to a 9. And the reason I was having pains is because they only gave me enough epidural for being dilated to a 2. So they sped up the epidural but it never seemed to catch up with me by the time Kagun was born. After the nurse checked me 3 other girls went into labor at the same time. So all of the nurses were gone. And no one came back to check on me for 2 hours. The epidural button had cut me off because I had pushed it so many times. I finally told my mom he was coming and to get a nurse in there. They had told me not to push. But by 7:30 I couldn't not push anymore. A nurse came in and checked me and said I was dilated to a 10 and the baby was coming. I could have told her that!! They set up the room and the Dr. came in. I pushed for about 20 min and Kagun was born.



My mom was there holding my hand the entire time. She never left my side and was an amazing cheerleader for me. She was constantly telling me how amazing I am and to not give up. She is more than just my mom. She is my best friend and my #1 fan. She is the most amazing woman I have ever met. And I am so lucky to have her as my mother and best friend. We have no secrets from each other and there is no one else who knows more about me than she does. I love you mom. I wouldn't have made it through this without you.
Shaylee and my dad came to the hospital about 7:00 when the nurse said the baby was coming. They both stayed in the room for the delivery. Inch by inch they both moved to the farthest corner of the room. The Dr. asked who wanted to cut the umbilical cord and grandpa West jumped up right that second. It was the most amazing moment of my life. Having all of my family there made it even more special for me. I love you guys so much!! Thanks for all the unconditional love and support.

This is Kagun West Taylor. (: The most amazing human being in this entire world. I'm sure any mom would say that about every one of their children. He was born with a head full of hair. While I was delivering the Dr. kept going on about how much hair he had. He said he had an inch of hair before I even got to see him. When the Dr said that while I was delivering I lost it. It finally was the moment that I was going to be able to hold my son and meet him for the first time. It was the most spiritual experience I have ever had. I had an amazing delivery and everything went perfectly. I think I was made to have children. I just need to get the hang of being 9 months pregnant. The last month was the hardest part of it all.


This is my parents first grandchild and they have welcomed him into this world with more love and support than anyone could ask for. My mom and dad spent every minute they could at the hospital with me giving me all the support I could ask for. It took me and my mom and a few nurses 6 hours to teach Kagun how to suck. I was ready to give up on breast feeding and just give him a bottle. I was so tired and just wanted him to eat. But my mom and the nurses never gave up and were constantly giving me words of advice and encouragement. I went into the hospital Sunday night at 1:00 am and was released Tuesday morning at 9:00 am. I couldn't have asked for anything more in those two days. My life suddenly became complete with Kagun in my arms and my family by my side.
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